Doctor Beverly Crusher, Personal Log, Stardate 44821.3.
Began an analysis today of the respiratory problems
being experienced on the Beta Moon of Peliar Zel.
Finally got an actual letter from Wesley.
Topped the class in Exobiology
but he's still struggling in Ancient Philosophies.
And... there's someone new in my life.
Ambassador Odan, Dr. Crusher.
I was just on my way to speak to you.
Hello, Data.
I've completed my study
on the atmospheric variations which have occurred on the moons
since the new technology was implemented.
Oh, thank you, Commander. That will be most helpful
in my efforts to mediate the quarrel.
I could go over it with you now.
It would not require more than two hours.
Oh, we-we do appreciate that, Data
but the Ambassador and I have set aside this time
to analyze the incidence of the lung disease
on the moons' inhabitants.
Then it is perfect timing, Doctor.
What better occasion
to integrate my results into your study?
Now that I think about it
you're absolutely right, Commander.
Unfortunately, I'm not feeling very well.
Perhaps Dr. Crusher could get you started
inputting your information.
l, myself, must return to my quarters.
Ambassador, are you still having those awful headaches?
I'd better bring you a hypospray to take care of it.
I would be most grateful.
Okay.
Put a cold cloth on your forehead, Ambassador.
I'll do my best to be with you shortly.
I'll set you up with the medical monitor, Data.
It'll take you a while to input the figures, won't it?
At least an hour.
But I do not believe much time can be saved
by exhibiting such haste now, Doctor.
Data, there are times when every second does count.
Space, the final frontier.
These are the voyages of the Starship Enterprise.
Its continuing mission...
to explore strange new worlds
to seek out new life and new civilizations
to boldly go where no one has gone before.
Somehow, I had an unnatural fear
that Data was going to barge in and ask to discuss
the peripheral effects of magnetospheric energy taps.
Well, if I don't get back soon
and take a look at his projections
he just might come looking for me.
Do you know when I first met the formidable Doctor Beverly...
what, uh, 10 days ago? ...
I thought to myself, "This woman is ice...
through to her bones."
Who would have ever guessed that instead of ice
there is fire?
Odan...
Stay here.
Don't go.
Odan, are we...?
Is this interfering
with your work on the Peliar Zel problems?
Well, fortunately, I've done about as much as I can
until we get there, because I just can't seem
to keep my mind on my work right now.
Odan...
Mm-hmm.
I have to go.
No!
Promise me we'll be together tonight.
I promise.
Then you may go, Doctor Beverly.
It's just Beverly.
Not just Beverly.
It's Beverly's smile, it's her kindness
her beauty, within and without.
So much more than just Beverly.
Picard to Ambassador Odan.
Yes, Captain, this is Odan.
The Federation representative from Peliar Zel
has come on board.
Would you care to meet us in the observation lounge?
I'll be right there, Captain.
If the news were encouraging, I assume you would not be here.
I am afraid you are correct, Captain.
The situation is growing progressively worse.
Where have you been?
Uh, with a patient.
Minor emergency.
Ambassador Odan.
This is Governor Leka Trion, of Peliar Zel.
Ambassador, thank you for coming.
I knew your father.
His efforts helped keep our people at peace
for several generations.
I would hope to serve you as well as he.
Governor, Ambassador.
I hope Doctor Crusher
was able to help you with your headache.
Thank you. Actually, she was.
Governor Leka has intercepted us
before we reach her planet
in order to update us on the situation.
The people on our moons have been in discord
ever since they migrated from our planet
five centuries ago.
To us on the planet
they're like two squabbling children.
We try to help them settle their arguments
by not taking sides, but this time, we are at a loss.
Well, I've been studying the information you sent.
If I understand correctly, the people of Alpha Moon
have found a way to tap directly into the magnetic field
of your planet
and now rely exclusively on that energy source.
Yes, but the Beta Moon is now suffering
some environmental damage as a result.
My design model suggests
that Beta will eventually experience
rising temperatures, erratic tide surges
and, in general, the beginning of global warming.
The impact on the health of the Betan people is clear.
There will be profound medical repercussions.
Alpha is unwilling to give up its newfound energy source.
Beta accuses them
of intentionally courting genocide.
Our efforts to reach a compromise have failed.
And now we have received intelligence
that both sides are arming for war.
If that happens, the people on my planet
will begin to take sides
and the outcome can only be disastrous.
We'll be in orbit around Peliar Zel within six hours.
If you could arrange
for the representatives of Alpha and Beta to be there
then Ambassador Odan could beam
directly down to the planet's surface.
Excuse me, Captain.
I prefer to shuttle to the surface.
I would not recommend it.
There are many radical factions involved in this dispute.
It would be difficult to guarantee your safety.
Well, I'm sure I'm not the first who has expressed discomfort
at the idea of molecular transport.
Thank you, but I prefer to remain intact.
I'll shuttle down.
As you wish.
Counselor, what is it?
It's Ambassador Odan.
I continually feel...
fluctuations of emotion from him.
Perhaps it's perfectly normal among the Trill.
It could be.
We know so very little about them.
Yes... quite.
Hi, Deanna.
Hi.
Is that the colgonite astringent you have on your eyes?
Yes. I guess so.
I've never tried it.
Someone... just put it on... me.
I didn't know you even came in here.
I don't.
At least, um... at least not very often.
But it feels good to indulge yourself sometimes.
I guess so.
Especially when you haven't done so in a while.
Wha-What is that supposed to mean?
Beverly...
you're in love.
Sometimes I wish you weren't so empathic.
I don't think it's really a secret.
It isn't?
You've been glowing.
Oh.
Must be the astringent.
What?
Nothing.
Oh, yes, there is.
What is it?
It's just something I sense in Odan.
What? What do you sense?
It's just...
How well do you really know him?
I feel I know him better
than I've known anyone in my life.
Am I being foolish?
I don't think so.
And yet, I've only known him for a couple of weeks.
Of course, that could be infatuation.
But I am a grownup and I know the difference
between love and infatuation.
Oh, all I know is...
I haven't felt this way for a long time.
And you like it.
I like it.
Come.
You wanted to see me, Captain?
Yes, Ambassador. Please sit down.
We have entered orbit.
We shall be transporting you to the planet
in a few minutes.
Oh, I am ready, Captain.
How will you proceed when you're there?
Oh, I cannot answer that.
I... I never know until I'm into the situation...
meet the people involved.
I work very much by instinct, and not by prearranged plan.
Well, it seems to work well for you.
Well, I do like to go into a situation
as well-informed as possible
and I must say that your staff has been quite helpful
in briefing me on the problems down there...
particularly Doctor Crusher.
My staff is quite capable.
I'm glad they've been useful.
Your Doctor Beverly is...
an extraordinary person
both as a scientist and...
and as a woman.
Yes, I'm sure that's true.
Well, shall we make our way to the Shuttle Bay?
Captain, you know her better than I.
Do you have any idea
how committed she is to remaining with Starfleet?
I wouldn't presume to speak for her.
Oh, no, of course not.
I just thought...
Well, you've known her so much longer than I.
Ensign Taggert to Captain Picard.
Yes, Ensign?
The shuttle is ready to transport the Ambassador.
Very well.
I'll find my own way, Captain.
I hope to return with good news.
Commander Riker has asked
to pilot you himself, Ambassador.
I am honored.
I don't know when I'll be back.
I know. Have a safe trip.
Oh, I will stay safe, Doctor Beverly.
I have good reason to return.
I've researched Earth customs.
This flower is given to express love.
Yes, it is.
Initiate shuttle preflight sequence.
Preflight underway, counting to clearance.
Shuttle has cleared the bay door.
Commander Riker
you will be out of shield range in five seconds.
Acknowledged, Lieutenant.
We'll be entering the upper ionosphere
in two minutes and 20 seconds.
Sir, an unidentified ship
is emerging from the limb of the moon.
Hail the vessel.
I have visual contact.
I don't recognize it.
It claims to be an escort vessel from the Beta Moon.
There was no mention of an escort.
Request a security clearance code.
They do not answer, sir.
Commander Riker, prepare to return to the Shuttle Bay.
Acknowledged.
Captain, they are loading their phaser banks.
Increasing power to the shields.
Coming about.
Engage tractor beam. Report, Number One.
We've lost port thrusters and both backup stabilizers.
I'm losing control.
We're bringing you in.
Captain, the shuttle hull has been weakened.
We're breaking up. You can't tow us.
You better beam us directly on board.
No. Don't do it.
I can't stabilize the shuttle.
If you transport me, it will kill me.
Please...
Number One, we're ready to beam you aboard.
Belay that order, Captain. I'll bring her in manually.
Advise Doctor Crusher we have a medical emergency.
He's in shock.
He's lost a lot of blood
but that still doesn't explain these readings.
Sedimentation rate is 29
but his lymphocytes are still intact.
It's as though there's a parasite at work.
Odan?
Odan...
I need to do exploratory surgery.
You may have a parasitic infection.
You must not.
You won't survive.
What is that?
Beverly...
that is me.
What?
This body is just a host.
I am that parasite.
That is what must survive.
It has always been this way.
The Trill are a joined species...
a host and a symbiont...
and in this fashion, we have survived for millennia.
You're dying.
What can I do?
The host body is dying.
You must contact the Trill quickly.
Tell them I need another host.
They will send a replacement.
I know this is difficult to accept
but I beg you, Doctor Beverly...
help me.
This mission must be completed.
Odan's host body died of the injuries
just over an hour ago
but the symbiont being, Odan, is still alive.
Odan is the one who negotiated the last treaty.
But the man everyone thought was his father
was just another host body.
And the reason Odan refused the transporter?
It would have damaged the symbiont.
We've contacted the Trill.
Another host will be here in 40 hours.
I've placed Odan in stasis.
He can survive another hour, maybe two
but not beyond that.
Would it be possible for me to serve as a temporary carrier?
No, Data.
The relationship requires a biological being.
We're at a desperate impasse in the Peliar system.
The attack on the shuttlecraft has inflamed the dispute.
Who was responsible?
No one will admit anything.
Each side accuses the other, and the threats are mounting.
We need Odan.
Doctor, could a human host carry him?
I believe so.
From Odan's description of the process
it should be possible, but I don't have...
Then I volunteer.
There's been no precedent for a human host.
I couldn't guarantee what might happen.
The risk is too great, Commander.
Weigh it against the prospect of war.
It's your choice, Will.
Let's get to it.
I've given you a local anesthetic.
You must be conscious during the implantation.
Drugs might damage the symbiont.
I understand.
Laser scalpel.
How do you feel?
Is there any pain?
No, just some strange sensations.
Vital signs?
Heart rate 110.
Blood pressure 90 over 40.
I can't close yet.
The assimilation's not complete.
Pulse 130 and climbing.
EEG is erratic.
He's going to start fibrillating.
200 milligrams of metrazene.
Yes, Doctor.
Hang on, Will.
We've got incorporation, Doctor.
I'm closing.
Brain waves are still irregular.
The metrazene should have stabilized him.
I'll give it ten more seconds before I go in again.
Here we go. EEG approaching regular.
Blood pressure leveling off.
That's better.
Signs are returning to normal.
Will...
it's Beverly.
Can you hear me?
Hello.
You're going to be all right.
How do you feel?
I'm fine.
You look a little tired, Doctor Beverly.
I know this must be disturbing, Governor
but you must convince the inhabitants of the moons
that I am Odan.
I have his skills, his thoughts, his memories.
They will perceive you as a Starfleet officer...
perhaps with your own agenda.
The man they knew as my father...
the man who stands before them...
both are merely hosts.
It is your task to help them understand.
I will try.
I cannot promise they will listen.
They are more factionalized than ever.
And listening is a skill which seems to have evaporated
with the heat of argument.
Speak softly, Governor.
Those who cannot hear an angry shout
may strain to hear a whisper.
I will do what I can.
Well done.
Mr. Worf, will you escort the Ambassador to his quarters?
I'm just a little dizzy.
I'll be fine. I just need to lie down.
Picard to Doctor Crusher.
Yes, Captain?
Doctor, the Ambassador is not well.
Will you please attend to him in his quarters?
Right away, sir.
White cell count is elevated.
Six-tenths of a degree temperature.
But no sign of rejection.
That's good.
You look awfully pale.
Just a little weak and lightheaded.
Cerebral blood flow looks normal.
I'll leave the metabolic booster.
Use it if the symptoms get worse.
Beverly...
Beyond that, I don't know what to do.
This is all new to me.
It is new to me, as well.
Please don't go.
We've got to talk about this.
I don't know what to say.
Nor do I
but I know that the silence would injure us.
Well, maybe you should have thought about that sooner.
Maybe you should have told me what you were.
It didn't seem to bother you to remain silent yesterday.
It never occurred to me.
This is what I am.
Did you ever tell me that you were only a single being?
Of course not.
It was normal to you.
I don't know who you are!
You must understand.
Whoever I... whoever I seem to be, I am Odan
who loved you.
That has not changed.
I still love you.
I can't help that!
If this causes you pain, I will suppress it.
I will keep my distance.
Doctor Beverly...
I would never hurt you.
May I join you?
You know, Deanna
the first man I ever loved unconditionally
was named Stefan.
He was a soccer player, and I would watch him
as he would race down the field.
And I thought my heart would stop
because he was so beautiful.
We married and had three children...
twin boys, Andrew and Alexander
and then later, a little girl, Jennifer.
Stefan became an artist... very famous.
He created huge, breathtaking metal sculptures.
He came to adore me as much as I worshipped him...
in my daydreams at least.
Stefan was 11, and I was eight.
He never even knew I existed.
Oh, Deanna...
I loved Odan.
I'm sure of it.
I had no doubts, no fears.
But what was it I loved?
His eyes?
His hands?
His mouth?
They're gone.
If that was all it was
I should mourn him and go on.
But it was more than that.
I felt...
completely free with him...
unguarded...
at ease with myself.
There were so many things that made him special to me.
And where are they?
Are they still here, alive in Will Riker?
I look at Will, and I see
someone I've known for years...
a kind of brother.
But inside, is he really Odan?
Oh... help me.
Please.
What do your feelings tell you?
I feel his pull.
It's very powerful.
I wish he'd never come on this ship.
Don't wish that, Beverly.
You can't be open to love if you don't risk pain.
I don't care.
I'd give anything not to feel the way I do now.
He's here, isn't he?
Look at him.
I don't want to look at him.
Talk to me. Just keep talking to me.
The first man I ever loved was my father.
He was strong and tall.
He carried me when the ground was muddy.
He chased away the monsters that hid under my bed at night
and he sang to me and kept me safe.
And he went away.
What I wouldn't give to hear those songs again...
to feel his arms protect me.
I never will.
But I can still feel his warmth and his love
as though he were here with me.
If you can feel those things
from the man we know as Will Riker
accept them.
Accept the love.
Captain's Log, Stardate 44823.8.
Representatives of the two moons of Peliar Zel
have agreed to come on board
to meet the "new" Ambassador Odan.
White cell count is elevated.
It's getting higher and higher every time I read it.
Are you in pain?
Not much.
Ambassador, we can stall the representatives.
They would see that as a deception.
I must meet with them.
But surely, to present yourself in this condition
is not going to help our cause.
I promise you, Captain
they will never know that I'm ill.
Captain, the emissaries.
May I present Kalin Trose, of Alpha Moon
and Lathal Bine, of Beta Moon.
Thank you for receiving us, Captain.
Is this Ambassador Odan?
Lathal Bine
it was your aunt who represented Beta 30 years ago.
That is correct.
She was a formidable woman.
I had the utmost respect for her.
And who was it who spoke for Alpha so long ago?
That was you, of course... Kalin Trose.
Then you were a young man
bristling with passion and zeal
yet wise enough to understand
that your people needed peace to ensure their future.
And how did you achieve a compromise
between that young man
and the iron-willed woman of Beta Moon?
They agreed to trade places for a week
to understand each other's situation
with more informed eyes.
After that, an agreement came swiftly.
Nothing that you have said is beyond what a schoolchild
could learn in a history book.
What is not commonly known
is that, during those negotiations
you, Kalin Trose, quelled a plot by a radical from your own moon
who was attempting to assassinate the Beta delegate.
It is true.
Perhaps he was wiser in his youth
than he is now.
Odan, you must convince him to stop.
Will you accept me?
Will you allow me to work with you?
Yes.
And Alpha Moon?
I will consider it
but I must consult others.
This is a typical tactic.
He is an obstructionist. You can see that.
Kalin Trose
you may confer with your people
but we must have your answer within eight hours.
You shall have it.
His vital signs are overworked.
His immune system is under attack.
I can only guess that he's suffering
from classic rejection syndrome.
Is there any treatment you can give him?
I can administer an immunosuppressant.
That could help relieve the symptoms
but it can't correct the underlying cause.
There is a foreign organism in his body.
Medical school didn't exactly prepare me
for situations like this.
You're doing all you can.
Don't worry about me, Captain.
I'm fine.
Ambassador, when you feel up to it
would you join me in my ready room?
Of course.
I can give you something that should help with the pain
at least for a little while.
The pain's gone.
Thank you.
Please don't.
Please let me touch you...
just for a moment.
No... please.
It was a fast decision, which we must take as positive.
The Alphan representative has agreed...
however reluctantly...
to let you mediate the dispute.
I knew they would.
They're reasonable people.
They're just trapped in their own anger.
I have no doubt, however, that they will bolt
if something goes wrong in the discussion.
Then it's my job to see that nothing goes wrong.
Did I say something wrong, Captain Picard?
No, it's just that...
for a moment, you sounded more like Will Riker.
We have received information
that the new host will arrive in 18 hours.
Will you be all right until then?
The medication Doctor Beverly gave me has helped.
I will find a way to keep going.
Lemon tea.
Computer, location of Doctor Beverly Crusher.
Doctor Crusher is in her quarters.
Can you make balso tonic?
There is no formula on record.
Please supply a molecular structure.
Never mind.
Come in.
I thought I should see how you were doing.
If you needed another hypospray.
I don't think so.
The symptoms haven't returned.
Oh, well, that's good.
Yes.
Uh, tomorrow's an important day.
Do you feel ready for it?
I'll be fine.
I've been preparing.
Oh, that's good.
Yes.
I'll, um, check your vital signs in the morning
before the representatives get here.
I don't want them knowing that I'm taking any medication.
Maybe you could schedule a series of breaks.
That's good.
Yes.
Beverly, I want you.
If you are going to leave, you better go right now.
I'm not leaving.
Captain's Log, Stardate 44824.4.
Governor Leka and the representatives
of the two moons are ready to transport on board.
We have learned that they each have troops massed
and are ready for combat, if this final effort at peace
is not successful.
White count is back up.
Temperature is elevated.
The effects of the medication
are wearing off faster every time.
I'll administer one now
and hope that it will hold for an hour or so.
No. No more.
Ambassador, it's clear you're in pain.
You can't get through the next hours without help.
I must.
Are the injections damaging to the host's body, Riker's body?
Yes.
We can't put him through any further risk.
But how can you function, conduct the meeting?
I'll manage.
We'll respect your wishes.
One more thing...
I will conduct the mediations today.
But at the end of today, regardless of the outcome
I must be removed from Riker's body
even if the new host has not arrived.
But you won't survive.
Riker will not survive if I am not removed.
He has done enough.
Your word.
Very well.
Worf to Captain Picard.
Yes, Mr. Worf?
The Governor and the two representatives have returned.
I will escort them to the observation lounge.
Thank you.
I'll stand by with the medication, just in case.
The pain may become so intense that I'll have to...
Beverly.
Whatever else I may be to you, I'm your friend.
I can only imagine what you're going through
and I want you to know, I'm here.
Jean-Luc.
Computer, what is the time?
1535 hours.
They've been in there for almost six hours.
Captain, I am receiving a message from the ship
carrying the Trill host.
Are they here, Worf?
No, they are experiencing difficulty.
They do not anticipate their arrival
for another nine hours.
Nine hours?
It was worth it.
Ambassador.
They will not go to war.
Mr. Worf, see that the representatives
are safely transported off the ship.
Ensign, set a course to intercept with the Trill vessel.
Prepare to go to warp nine.
Sir, it could take more than two hours to reach the vessel.
I must remove him. I gave my word.
Will is going to be all right.
His vital signs have stabilized and he's sleeping now.
How is Odan?
I've placed him in stasis.
He's fine for the moment.
You need some rest, Doctor.
No. If Odan is to survive
he needs to be implanted in the new host
as soon as he arrives.
I'll wait here.
It'll be some time.
I know.
Doctor.
Is the Trill host here?
Yes.
Good.
Bring him in.
Doctor?
I am Kareel.
I am to become host to Odan.
The operation to implant Odan into the new host
was completed at 1900 hours
and appears to have been successful.
There were no difficulties in assimilation.
Doctor Beverly, could we talk for a moment?
You should be sleeping.
You need to rest.
I've never felt better...
except once or twice.
My poor Beverly.
This has been so hard for you.
I want to thank you for your caring...
for your standing by me.
I congratulate you.
You averted a war that would have cost many lives.
Yes.
It seems as though everything has turned out for the best.
And, yes, I am still Odan, and I still love you.
I cannot imagine that ever changing.
I am glad that you're all right.
Is there to be nothing more?
Perhaps it is a human failing
but we are not accustomed to these kinds of changes.
I can't keep up.
How long will you have this host?
What would the next one be?
I can't live with that kind of uncertainty.
Perhaps...
someday
our ability to love
won't be so limited.
I understand.
Odan...
I do love you.
Please remember that.
I will never forget you.